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07 October 2011 @ 08:17 pm
why am i writing this  
no really, i barely know why i'm writing this and i doubt i'll feel any better after it. but i guess it's worth trying.

i will say it, i'm scared as fuck. i'm happy that i got a job and that i can work towards going to university and leaving the US (or going to concerts and buying things for baby dai which is obviously way more important anyway<33) but i'm truly scared of so many things. i'm scared of going out into this world alone. i'm scared of growing up. mostly i am scared of being pulled away from my best friend more than i already am with school. i am truly just a hollow thing if i'm alone, and i don't ever want to be that way again. i know i won't, but the thought of it or even the possibility scares me to no end.

i don't know what i'm supposed to do. i hope it ends up better than i'm thinking and i still have time to live and write and do all of the other stuff, even if there's only a few things, that make me happy.

..yeah, i really don't feel much better, but i guess that's all i can say for now.
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♡mood: worriedworried
♡music: Park Bom - Don't Cry
derinaemucy on November 4th, 2011 04:19 am (UTC)
You were meant to blog. It has inspired me to start my own blog on barrie dentist